Doubt

Do you ever have one of those days where you doubt everyone and everything like no one cares and you don't believe half the stuff they have said?
I'm totally having one of those days with you... :(
We talk less and less everyday. You say you're not going to leave which I love hearing from you, but I feel like I'm loosing a little bit of you everyday.
You're always saying sweet things to me, but everyone knows actions speak louder than words.
If I didn't text you every morning and wait for you to reply we would probably never talk...
The last thing I want to do is give up because you mean so much to me and I'm glad we have gotten as close as we are right now. I know we can go to the distance with a littke more effort from both of us.
If theres something you want me to do more or less feel free to tell me.
COMMUNICATION IS KEY.
I know you dont like to hear me say it but....
I love you.
No matter how much you want to disagree I know I do. I've read your definition of love over and over again and I feel that with you. Of course its not the strongest of love because I have my moments of doubt where I dont think you really care, but I know you do. So its a weak form of love full of fear of loosing you again, but I know eventually this fear will go away and the doubt will fade so that no girl (ex or friend)
Wil make me doubt how much you care for me. I'll get there one day.
Like you said
"Life is just breathing without a Challenge."

Sweet BabyLove

      Well I didn't get to see you on Tuesday of last week, but I got to see you on Saturday AND on Sunday where we were able to relieve some stress! ;) This was a Good Good weekend. I didn't get to sleep all night next you and cuddle all night like I wanted, but I got to see you and you were being oober sweet and telling me you missed me <3

      How sweet! I still think I miss you more....If you think you miss me more I'll let you think so, but I KNOW better. :P I hope you come back down this weekend, but with my luck I probably wont get to see you. BLAHHHHHH :C

     I hope you're behaving in Jville. I trust you, but IDK. Lately you're so busy 24/7. I don't even see a reason to try and text you because you're always doing something that you hardly have any time to call me or even send a simple text. You get have work, Work WAYYYY too damn much, and your sleep is so fucked up. Its getting ridiculous. I <3 you soooo damn much much but I really wish we would talk more.... :/  

     This is becoming more of a challenge than I thought it was going to be. Don't worry though. I'm still not giving up on us. I'm much stronger BabyLove. :)

Gives me Butterflys

• Good morning texts
• Kisses on the forehead
• Really long Goodbyes
• Holding hands
• Silence that isn't Akward
• Cuddling all Night
• Your Smile
• Listening to your memories
• When you say you miss me
• Waking up beside you
• You playing with my hair
• Your ROTC outfit :p
• Your eyes
• Our hugs
• Your voice

 YOU

Give me Butterflies 

Stupid Rent, Sweet Words

I woke up today thinking that after a week of waiting I was finally going to get to see you and kiss you all over. 

I was wrong.

You had to leave and go back and pay rent for your apartment

by midnight....  :c

THEN after you tell me this sad sucky news and Im all upset got tears rolling down my face, mascara all over....

You tell me you'll TRY to come back down on Tuesday cause I'll be at my moms with the car and you'll come see me. :D

Thats like so sweet. The fact that you're willing to drive down here when you have class the next day dried all my tears and put me on cloud nine. <3

It was cute and sweet like put me head over heels! So baby I hope you can come cause I miss you so Damn Much!If you can't make it Tuesday I'll understand. Be sad of course, but Ill know its because you're too busy with more important things.

Wouldn't Change a Thing

"I can't stay mad at you for anything. 

You're the harmony to every song I sing. 

And I wouldn't change a thing."

I HATE you work so damn much. It gets more and more difficult everyday. It makes me so mad at you for loving money, but I cant stay mad at you when you say the sweetest things, and care for me the way you do. Its such a simple kind of relationship and care we have that we don't have to go far or spend money to have a sweet great time.

You're so relaxed, happy and gorgeous.

I LOVE IT!

If you care about me like you say you do then I could really see this going far because I know how I feel about you, and though, yes I get upset and bipolar sometimes there isn't a thing I would change about you, me, US.

What we have is cute, honest, sweet, and strong.

I wouldn't give this up for anything in the entire world.

Promise

I can't promise a relationship without arguments, disagreements, or difficult times.

However, I can promise as long as you still care, have faith, and put forth and effort EVERYDAY

I'm Staying. <3

J.A.L.

Life is just breathing

Without a Challenge. 

Lyrics

      My hearts a stereo.

It beats for you so listen close.

Hear my thoughts in every note.

Make me your radio.

Turn me up when you feel low.

Just sing along to my stereo.

I only pray you'll never leave me behind.

Because good music can be so hard to find.

I'll take your head and pull it closer to mine.

Thought love was dead 

but

Now you're changing my mind.

Be Strong!

      Be strong keep faith be strong keep faith be strong keep faith be strong keep faith be strong keep faith be strong keep faith be strong keep faith be strong keep faith be strong keep faith be strong keep faith be strong keep faith be strong keep faith be strong keep faith be strong keep faith be strong keep faith

      The distance is not fun. Its stressful and requires patients, but its worth it. It will all be worth it in the future. I just have to remember he cares about me, he hasn't messed with anyone else as far as I know, and anytime i've needed him he was always there with help and kind words.
     
    The distance is gonna be a bitch, but I care too much to let go. No matter how long it takes. As long as he wants me her I WILL BE HERE!
            

Forget Me

Most of the time you make me the happiest girl in the world.

Then there are days I can feel you forget me...

You

You're not my life,

but you're the one I want to spend it with.

You're not my world,

but you're the best thing in it.